The beautiful thing about hometowns is that they are always home. Jordan and I moved away from our hometown this week and are now residents of Champaign, IL. Much to the amazement of myself and my husband, no tears were shed on my behalf. Sadness did eventually creep its way into my heart, but after a week I feel like I’ve got a grip on my feelings. It was nothing a batch of chocolate chip cookies couldn’t fix.
Unfortunately, before I was able to make our new home’s inaugural batch of cookies, I did experience some fears and heartaches. While reading these, please keep in mind that I am highly emotional and sentimental ;)
+ “Everyone is mad at us for moving” … This is kind of funny to me now, but I really did feel this way. In my head I could picture everyone back home bidding us their good riddance! After expressing this fear to my dad during the move, he assured me that no one in Tremont was sitting in their homes stewing about our move. This is just part of life!
+ “We will never be done unpacking” … Turns out that moving after your wedding is a whole new ballgame with the addition of ten thousand wedding gifts. That first night, I would walk into a room and walk right back out because I had no idea where to begin. Finally I forced myself to take it one item at a time. It all moved so quickly after that!
+ “This feels like a strangers house” … Seriously when you first move into a new space, nothing feels right and nothing feels like home. I know, I know “home is wherever I’m with you” but come one people — you need some pictures on your wall too! I actually hung most of our pictures long before everything was unpacked.
+ “The babies will forget me.” … I don’t have a solid solution to this one. Two of my best friends had little baby boys in the last two months, and I am very sad to be moving away from them. The truth is that they will forget me, unless I make an effort to stay involved in their lives. So that’s just what I’m going to do!
+ “Everyone’s hanging out without me.” … Yes, Lauren, they are. That’s okay because this really is just part of life and we all have to keep moving. Jordan and I understand the importance of finding community here in our new town, but our hearts are always with our friends and family back home. I feel like time with them is now much more intentional and treasured <3
+ “I went to Target and no one knew me.” … Hallelujah! I’m really excited about this because, well, I have introverted tendencies and sometimes I just want to be unseen. However, it was so strange that I didn’t no anyone at Target so I almost told the clerk “I’m new here.”
There are fears and heartaches, yes, but the theme I’m seeing is that this is just part of life. Moving away from everything you know is only bad if you let it be. I have chosen to fully embrace this life in Champaign, while investing in my relationships back home. Jordan and I have absolutely no idea where we will someday settle down but I know that I’m going to be completely present wherever we are (and bake some chocolate chip cookies).
How did you make your house feel more like a home? My friend Ashley recommended reading The Nesting Place: It Doesn’t Have to Be Perfect to Be Beautiful, which I think looks wonderful. I would love to hear your advice and experience!